Ex's and Oh's
10:29 p.m. - 2006-06-20
Ex's and Oh's
10:29 p.m. - 2006-06-20
Its a strange thing to find out that everything you thought could be blamed on someone else-was actually your own fault
Its been a funny kinda week, a week for re-evaluating myself and what it is that i want in life
I started to think of my past relationships and why it is that they ended
You see i have always been the one that the boys split up with- it was never the other way around
I assumed it was their fault ,you know the problem was with them
But silly thing is i know it was me and has been me all along
I have a sort of time slot in relationships,everything is fine for the first three months or so and then i start to get bored and find myself making excuses not to see them and it comes to a point where they cant put up with it anymore and we end up splitting up
And i am always so upset- but dont know why,because after all its what i wanted wasnt it? surely thats why i would make excuses not to see them
Or maybe i'm too afraid that the next person that comes along will actually be the right one for me and im scared of commiting myself to that person so i end things before my feelings for them develop enough for me to get hurt
Because there will always be a piece of me- a little voice inside that says it will all end in tears-I dont want to listen to that voice anymore because its ruining every chance of happiness that i have
But for now im happy with me,im happy being single and know that a boyfriend isn't the be all and end all of things-and things come along when you least expect..so im just gonna wait for the next surprise and see what hapens